Expect nothing less

It's really about letting go of what happens after you do something. You hit 'send' and wait. You press 'dial' and wait. You nod 'hey' and wait. But what if you didn't get stuck in the waiting? What if what happened next was a surprise and not only were you ok with that- you loved that?

There is no expected outcome. This is an experiment without a hypothesis. I'm working it backwards. Expect nothing less than nothing.

This is where it's been wrong all along- I've only ever been disappointed with myself. I want to eat this bagel and enjoy it. I want to be in this moment and feel arms around me and just be. I'm on this little seesaw- trying to find the way to the middle.

I only stop breathing

I only stop breathing when I'm sleeping. And when you make me nervous. My body is smart enough to start breathing again though. I'm glad one of us is looking out.

Oh well. Another day